I'm so sorry I haven't written for a while, but I've been in hiding ... from life.
Many things have happened, and I've found it hard to cope, so just had to shut down a few areas for a while as I tried to find my equilibrium again. My 'stuff' is far from sorted, but I'm coming to terms with everything, and life is a little sweeter.
Mainly it's been about me realizing my role as a mum is changing as my older kids get ... older, and more independent, and more not needing mum. At times it's felt as if my heart has been ripped out, but I' m gradually realizing life goes on, and just because some of my children aren't as needy it doesn't mean my life is over. I just need to redefine it, and also be comforted that I still have Little Man for a wee while. He told me the other day that I was the best mum ever, and boy did I need to hear that! Such delicate egos we mothers have!
Other stuff has been to do with work and my lack of confidence in my ability to cope, but several weeks later I'm still here and still doing fine, and if I'm honest still enjoying what I do.
So, I'm taking it steady, being kind to myself, listening to my logical husband when my emotions get carried away, and do you know what, I think I'll be ok :)
The significance of the kangaroo pic? I've had fun mucking about with a photo of a bag I have - just love the design. When I went for my walk in the forest this evening, enjoying the cool air, I disturbed a couple of roos who bounced off to a safe distance, then stood like meerkat statues watching me walk on by. I love sharing my walks with the wildlife :) Time in the woods restores my soul!
